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Spank, please I said with such a dismissive tone. After all you have done to me I know you aren’t tripping on me. You don’t know what I did or was out doing.

Sen look, this is getting out of hand. I had a dream I was doing some really bad things to you. I’m not gonna put my hands on you but you aren’t gonna disrespect me either.

It was almost 4 in the morning and our argument was getting more heated the more we kept talking. I was hurting and he couldn’t see that which hurt even more. His pride and ego was the source of his anger. I asked if he were sleeping in this room so I could know where I would be sleeping. It was definitely wherever he wasn’t. He went to room fuming and he got in the bed and went to sleep. The next morning we didn’t say a word to each other. We went about our day business as usual. We actually didn’t speak to each other until it happened.

I walked in our room and saw a letter on the bed. He was downstairs playing the video game.

You are hereby summoned to appear in family court to establish the paternity of said child. The mother has named you as the father. A DNA test will be completed on this date to establish paternity.”

All I could say was WOW! I grabbed the rest of the packet and looked to see what the child’s birthday was and who the mother was. I had been through this before and the child wound up not being his child. But here we go again. The mother was his daughter’s mother. <deep breath>

When I first met Spank’s daughter’s mother she was pregnant and I asked was this his child. He said no. I had no choice but to go with that. The baby was born about 3 months after we met. She called a few times, that I knew of, regarding the baby but eventually stopped mentioning it altogether. The word on the street was that the baby wasn’t his and he went with that. Now, everyone would find out the truth.

When did you get this letter? I asked him.

It came in the mail today. She really gonna try to pin this baby on me. That baby isn’t mine, Sen.

Well, she’s thinks it’s yours for a reason. Did you sleep with her around the time when she would have gotten pregnant?

Yea, but it wasn’t anything like that.

Well that means there is a strong possibility the baby’s yours. <deep sigh> I can’t deal with another kid. So what if this baby is yours we can’t have anymore kids because you will already have a total of 3?

No, the baby won’t have any effect on us. I will take care of him if he’s mine but that doesn’t stop us from having our family.

I took what he said at face value. We couldn’t wait to find out if this child was his or not. I was mad and hurt because accepting a child in the middle of our marriage was asking for a lot especially since I had his daughter more than he did. I couldn’t, no didn’t want to go through this. I was on my way out any way but I knew I still loved him. I didn’t want to be a failure and a divorce meant I failed at my marriage but I knew I could do better. He, on the other hand, was confident would be back together.

 
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  • Dee

    I can’t take anymore, I just can’t! How much is a person expected to take? You have yet to give a valid reason as to why you are with him. You have not highlighted one positive since this blog started. Per your posts ; he doesn’t love you, doesn’t help with the kids, doesn’t help cook or clean, complains about your cooking and cleaning, cheats a lot, on top of all that disrespects you every chance he gets, now you’re supposed to accept an outside kid? Too much entirely too much. I’m gonna go back and reread because I must have missed something because I just don’t get it! The sex can’t be that great lbvs.

    • http://www.sennysen.com Senny Sen

      *fidgets uncomfortably with inappropriate laughter*
      I guess you can say I’m like a drug addict chasing that first high. I wanted him to treat me the way he did in the very beginning. I kept doing whatever I could to get his attention again then eventually I just became numb. Young, dumb and in love I was. This was the family I wanted so bad and I didn’t want to just give up. Guess I love hard.

  • http://Www.fapwinner.com Uncle P

    All I will say is this: Love, like justice, is blind not stupid.

    For those that are in abusive relationships, everyone else can see what is so obvious, except the person that is being abused…. They rationalize, hope and pray.

    Even the Bible says that there are times when prayer is NOT the proper option.

    I wonder if the “dream defense” will hold up in court? I Can see it now. “I killed her, but I thought I was dreaming…..”.

    He dreamed that he did some pretty mean things.. I guess a taste of his own medicine ain’t so tasty after all….

    Until next time,

    Uncle Peanut

  • http://Www.fapwinner.com Uncle P

    One more thing. Your partner failed in the marriage- not you.

    You deserve a medal for all of the BS that you have taken. One good thing coming out of all of this is you are showing other young ladies what NOT to do because you have been there and done that.

    That is the ONLY redeeming quality in all of this MESS, as well as the beautiful kids that resulted from this “thing” called a marriage.

    Until next time,

    Uncle Peanut

    • http://www.sennysen.com Senny Sen

      Thanks Uncle P. It’s funny how people usually pounce on the victim. I don’t like to call myself a victim but that’s why people would rather deal with things on their own rather than talk to people. I don’t know how many people have called me stupid including family. I’ve heard things like she’s too smart to be so dumb. So when I realized this he capitalized on it. He knew my circle was extremely small. One of my BFF’s stopped talking to me because of my “stupidity” with him.

  • http://aol Sharon D.

    Sen you have a Big Heart and obviously believe in Forgiveness. Do you Love Hard….. maybe and there is Nothing wrong with That. There is nothing wrong with giving your all with someone you Love. Problems arise when you’re” Loving Hard” someone who isnt Reciprocating. One who doesnt Honor, Respect, Treasure or Appreciate your Feelings. Everyone I know has fallen prey to this type of loving. It is not Uncommon nor Inhuman.

    Everybody is different with their Tolerance levels. What some of us put up with…U may Not & Vice-a-versa. Everyone has to reach their own level of tolerance before they’ve Had Enough!! Because you were in love with spank your tolerance level was High. You were willing to forgive, ignore or jus deal with those things that were gnawing at you. Your Friends & Family were Not in love with him and therefore very Opinionated and perhaps Offended by his actions. Nobody likes to see their loved ones Disrespected, Saddened or Hurt by another. And although you felt you were being judged it was most assuredly Anger from those you love not being able to Protect you from the Madness.

    The bottom line is, we all have to go through our Own Madness but only We know when We’ve had enough.and the time for it to Cease. We talk to others because we need the Release and sometimes opinions but the Decision is Always Yours and you’ll recognize it when you’re Ready to Deal with it!

    Love U Sen Poo!

    • http://www.sennysen.com Senny Sen

      Well said! I love you too!

      I was debating with someone the other side who basically called me “stupid”. I challenged his opinion because how can you stand on the outside and I say how I should handle anything especially since you aren’t going through it. I know it’s hard for people to understand but that’s usually all people want is someone to understand not make them feel even worse. Love is a powerful emotion and can cause people to do some crazy things.